SO Many Changes! SO Many Emotions!

Well, I see that I haven't posted on here since October, so I guess everyone can just get used to the fact, that I'm NOT the daily blogger. :) But that's ok, right? :)

Sooo many things are on my plate right now, so I thought I'd sit down and update everyone on them.

As of right now, I am 4 days past my due date for having our son, Aiden Michael Roman. Let me tell you, this has been VERY frustrating for me. Not the fact that I am late, but the fact that my body doesn't seem to know HOW to go into labor on its own. I really haven't dilated or anything, and I still have never felt a contraction at all. It really just has me down that my body isn't doing what it is supposed to be doing. I went to the doctor last week, and they put me on the schedule to be induced this coming Wednesday, that is IF the hospital on post has a bed available for me that day (they only have 7 labor beds there). This really scares me to death, because no one EVER has anything positive to say about being induced. Even the doctor told me, "It's like being thrown in a lake.....going into labor on your own is like walking out into the lake......being induced is like being thrown into the lake." Gee, thanks for the encouragement. I'm already the biggest scaredy cat you will ever meet in your life.

I know you are supposed to gain weight during pregnancy, but that is really getting me down, too. I have never weighed this much in my life, and after a while it just gets depressing. Especially since I have never been one to work out, I know that this weight will NOT just fall off after Aiden is born.

Another big change is that Justin leaves Active Duty Army as of May 12. That is his last official day in the Active Duty Army. He starts his leave time in April, though, and we move from Texas back to Indiana in early April.....without a job. That is some scary stuff. Justin does have 2 interviews coming up that are jobs in Lexington, Kentucky and Carrollton, Kentucky. We are praying so hard that he gets one of these jobs, but we really have no clue what the Lord has in store for us. We are just trying to have faith that our Father in Heaven will provide for us. Justin has already signed up for the Indiana National Guard, which will be some extra income. However, he will need another job as well for us to live on. No worries, he will NOT deploy with the Indiana National Guard for 2 years. That is on the contract, which I read through very carefully. :) So the plan right now is to live with my parents in Scottsburg, Indiana until Justin finds a job and we can find a place of our own....all with a newborn. Yeah, talk about stressful!

So I ask that each one of you pray for us. We know prayer is such a powerful thing, and we know that our God will guide our paths and provide for us. We just have to remember this, even when emotions get in the way sometimes.